Real Time: Thursday, 2nd May 2019.
I just realized now that I did not write for an entire month of April. In January I was relentlessly writing almost every day, I pushed, I put so much effort and hey it paid off. I was able to take a month’s break. One thing I was worried about was not to be too complacent and get too comfortable, biggest mistake that one can do.
Anyway, my inspiration for this episode comes from deciding to start watching Game of Thrones from scratch, season 1, episode 1. My sis in law did try to put me on a few years back, I did watch a few episodes on season 1 but never made it to season 2 for some reason, oh wait, in my previous episodes I do leak this weakness of how I used to start and not finish things, well I guess this was also the case.
It is good to give a fuck sometimes, you have to, filter your fucks for positivity.
Yes, I started watching GoT ‘cause of FOMO I admit, I believe am somewhat a very curious girl to some degree and that is truly one of the things I love about myself, I am easily influenced but, being grown, matured and woke now (with that said, don’t get it wrong when someone says that they are woke, I still have not figured life out and that will never ever happen, I don’t know anything but I am learning as I go. This life thing is a journey), I choose what I give into. I choose what inspires or/and motivates me, I am in full control of my choices and decisions. Everything you choose to do is influenced by something (as long as you have the control), that is just how it is.
You need to be very careful and trade carefully when you are easily influenced, having this personality/character can be a curse and/or a blessing, you choose what you want to make of it. Will you be easily influenced to feed the frivolous life or will you embrace this side of you, take advantage and feed your curiosity for good? Again, the choice is yours. You are needed to be very self-aware, you need to be conscious enough to know the difference. In essence, you need to be woke!
What I am currently experiencing with this journey (if I may call it that) of deciding to delve into my curiosity to start watching Game of Thrones is that, I have had some people …. Wait it will be much easier if I explain it in this way. So there are 2 different kinds of people in the world:
- Positive people sound like this; You’ve got a long way to go but it is all worth it. I honestly envy you, I wish I could reset my mind and start it, and the best thing for you is that it’s all there. You don’t have to wait for years between seasons waiting. Enjoy the journey.
- Negative people sound like this; Why do you like following every big thing that is happening in the world? You are brave girl, you got time.
Do you see what is happening? People will always feel threatened and will always be bothered when you are trying to expand, change your tune, feed your curiosity, jump onto a different boat…you get my point. They wish they had your courage, that is why they are so uncomfortable.
This applies with everything that you will try to do and accomplish but you will always experience such snags. Do you and stay woke.
7 things negative people will do to you. They will…
1. Demean your value
2. Destroy your image
3. Drive you crazily
4. Dispose your dreams
5. Discredit your imagination
6. Deframe your abilities and
7. Disbelieve your opinions
― Israelmore Ayivor