Real-Time: Monday, 21st October 2019
‘’Change is hard at first, messy in the middle and gorgeous at the end’’ – Robin Sharma
As many of you will know if you have been reading and following my journey this year, since my life-changing epiphany… I can confirm that leading to today, this is exactly what I have experienced. A couple of weeks ago I was in the messy stage of this journey and I could have easily quit, given up and lost everything that I have worked hard for since the beginning of the year. The messy stage is the most crucial stage and a huge test of your life…do we keep going or are we drowning in this mess? Everything was fucked up and the irony of it all is that I was busy reading the book ‘’Everything Is Fucked Up’’ by Mark Manson. True Story.
Today I am 33 years old, today I enter a new age and a new year, today I enter new adventures, new choices and decisions, new enlightenment, knowledge and wisdom. In this new year, no matter the mess that I come across or the mess that I create along the way, I promise to harness and hone every little thing I have learned and has helped me grow, all I want to see is life manifesting, seeing seeds that I have planted grow to what I could have never imaged. I now live for this, growth.
See how I said ‘’the mess that I create along the way’’…during this mess, I learned the hard way what accountability and what responsibility means, I had to sit back and point this back at myself that damn, I fucked up and how am I going to get up, get out and most importantly learn and grow from this. Growth hurts, it hurts so much sometimes. We come across things that we never imagine going through. With the mindset that I have now, I have the growth mindset and NOT the fixed mindset-the feeling pity, hiding in the corner, losing hope mindset. I have the mindset of knowing that you pick yourself up from the inside and only you can do that, only you. Nothing is ever final. Life has to go on.
Today I am 33 years old and everything is fading beautifully out of the messy stage into the gorgeous stage, I am on the driveway and, I can almost touch the gorgeousness of it all.
Today I am in a space in my life where expansion, manifestation, broad-minded thinking, self-expression and being true to myself are priorities. If nothing I am doing involves increasing/expanding then I do not want it, I do not want to be a part of it. Self-growth is an ongoing beautiful and sometimes hurtful process of understanding thyself.
Today I am in a space where I am obsessed with myself, I am obsessed with self-growth and it seems like everything else does not matter, I have missed out on this all my life and I am now breathing and living for this. I have a strong passion to want to stretch myself further and further and further and pouring this energy on to others.
I never understood when they said, we are all here and are born to serve, everyone’s purpose on earth is to serve. You are insulting God, the universe and yourself if you have no belief inside of you that you can do it, that you can be anything you want and that you can be whoever you want, that you can turn your life around at any point and take a new direction. This is so profound. I am now a martyr to this belief, I am willing to die for this belief.
‘’Rebel against mediocracy’’ – Pastor At Boshof.
Cheers to being 33 and may the good Lord continue to guide me on the right path. God sent his only Son to die for me and you on the cross, so that when we fail and completely mess up, we can stand up and always be resilient with no excuses knowing that God got us. Remember, you were not created to bear it alone, God really got you. He is the same God yesterday, today and forevermore. ‘’When you want something, all the universe conspires in helping you achieve it.’’ – Paulo Coelho. True Story.
One thing I can surely say I have conquered…is the calmness and the peace within me, I am being led by the spirit, I am being led by good vibrations and energies. This is a superpower.
‘’When you are lying on your deathbed, one of the cool things to say is, ‘I really explored myself’. – Carol S. Dweck.